Tuesday, January 26, 2010

lump

Have you every looked at your sleeping child and got that lump in your throat? The one where the weight of the world crashes in on you and you realize how much responsibility you have, and the far reaching consequences if you fail? I am an emotional wreck. I just can't seem to get a handle on things lately. I feel like a bad mom. I feel like a bad friend. I feel like a bad wife. I feel like everything I do is wrong. I need to do better. I am trying to please too many people. I need to get my priorities in order. Right now as I sit and stare at my sweet babies, I realize that everything else is just going to have to wait. I am a mom... and as hard as that job is... I think it pays the best. =)
~Nettie

7 comments:

Kate said...

Uggh it must be contagious. I was just telling my hubby I felt all those things. I think the thing to keep in mind is if you are giving an honest effort every day then you are doing the best you can. I know I am constantly second guessing myself if I do enough for others without spreading myself too thin. Go away January. I'm ready for spring.

Michelle said...

I'm feeling the EXACT same way right now! Having a 3rd baby has been kicking my BUTT! It seems like I can't get anything done and I'm so inadequate. I have so much to do but can't do it because someone is always needing something! Right now my boys are sick with strep throat and have fevers and I can't love on them the way I would like because I don't want to get the baby sick. I'm SOOOO glad that Paul is home this week. Anyways, I'm kindof rambling, but just wanted to let you know that your a definately NOT alone in the whole situation!

Lorene Briscoe said...

I am a person who likes to try and please others. Two months ago when I got my calling as Primary President that all came to a screaching halt. You cannot please everyone and the harder you try the more it brings you down. Concentrate on your family and for now that is all that matters, everyone else will still go on with their lives. The previous primary president told me there will be times where people hate you and dislike you, you have to pick yourself up and keep moving forward. I had a few people come up to me and tell me they did not want to do their callings anymore. Something told me to tell them thank you, so I took over fruit baskets and goodies as a thank you and one woman was so shocked that I did this she gave me a big hug and told me she was sorry for wanting to be released. I told her it was okay, sometimes things come up and stuff happens, as I said before you just keep moving forward, everything works out if you have God near you, love you sis:)

Doty Family said...

I think it's a common feeling in most women. We are expected to be everything to everyone and that's a heavy burden to put on one person's shoulders. All you can do is do your best and love your family with all you are. The rest will fall into place. I think your amazing! Hugs!

Hopie said...

You are not alone on any of those feelings. You are entitled to them occasionally, just don't get stuck there!!! I love you, keep your head up!!!

bodoba said...

The only way I manage it is to eliminate friends. I focus on my husband and children and house. But I also miss out on a lot too because of that.

Third Times A Charm said...

Family is deffinately where it's at. You are a phenominal mother, wife and women. Stepping back and re-evaluating is a good thing.