Monday, November 29, 2010

Day 5 & 6

Day 5:
Something you hope to do in your life.
I want to take my family on a vacation. I know it sounds lame, but Mitch and I have been married for 8 years and we have yet to go on a real vacation. I think I should really make that a priority. I don't even care if it is just a road trip or something, just to get away would be awesome!
Day 6:
Something you hope you never have to do.
I hope I never have to experience serious illness in my family. I cannot stand to see people I love suffer. It is so hard to imagine having to see my husband or my children deteriorate before my eyes. I think the death of a child or my husband would be very difficult, but I have enough faith to know that they really would be in a better place, and it is not up to me to decide how long we get to spend together. I just want every moment of our time to be filled with joy and happiness.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

30 days of truth... day 3 & 4

Day 3:
Something you had to forgive yourself for.
This one is going to seem silly to some people, but it ate away at me for a long, long time.
It was December 23rd... fresh snow blanketed Frost Lane. My friends and I went sledding all day. The road was like a sheet of ice by nightfall. This just so happened to be the night my dad had a massive heart attack. The ambulance came down the road to get my dad... it took 3 hours to get the ambulance back up the road because of all the ice. MY ICE. I remember staring out the kitchen window at the flashing lights. I don't think I have ever prayed so hard in my entire life. I just kept crying and saying how sorry I was that I had gone sledding. My dad died that night, and for many years I blamed myself. I have since forgiven myself, and realize that it was GOD who took my dad, not my silly ice...

Day 4:
Something you had to forgive someone for.
My high school principal. He is dead now, so I will try to be kind... but man that guy was a JERK!! I decided to graduate a year early from high school, mostly because I had all of my credits in half way through my junior year, but the fact that I lived in a very small town might have contributed a tiny bit. I didn't want to stay there and be bored, I am an overachiever... and I was ready to go to college and be done with the high school small town drama. The principal made it HELL for me to graduate. I finally had to go straight to the superintendent in order to graduate... and to top it all off he conveniently "FORGOT" to order enough honor roll cords, so even though I was a straight A student, I didn't get to wear my honor roll cords. It was LAME! I walked through the line and shook every one's hand... except his. I totally left him hanging... and made it clear that I would rather die than shake his hand. I still don't know why he was so mean to me, or why he would do everything in his power to NOT help me graduate... but I will let God work it out. I'm just happy that everything worked out... It made me a stronger person... so all is forgiven. =)

Monday, November 22, 2010

30 days of truth: days 1 & 2

30 days of truth:

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
Day 1~
Something you hate about yourself:
I hate that I am a procrastinator. It often results in me scurrying around at the last minute to try to pull off whatever it is that I have procrastinated... I am sure that my friends and people I work with in various areas probably really hate this about me too. I have tried and tried to change this little annoying habit, but it never seems to last long.
Day 2~
Something you love about yourself:
I love that I am exactly who you think I am. This used to be different, I used to try to be who everyone else wanted me to be, and I would change my personality depending on who I was around. Not anymore. I have learned that in my heart of hearts, I simply cannot please everyone, and if I am not true to who I really am, then I am simply lying. I am sure that I have made people upset by being who I really am, but God made me this way, so if you don't like it... take it up with him. =)